You know, not a day goes by that I don’t think about you. Especially today. My heart feels heavy and I don’t really know how to deal with it. All I know is that thinking of you when you were happy is the best way to remember you. I won’t ever forget long car rides blasting music with you, playing video games at all hours of the night, taking walks with no destination, sharing cigarettes while we talk about our lives, kissing your chest after I punched it because I felt bad, stealing all the hot sauce and sporks from Taco Bell, you ALWAYS falling asleep when we watched movies, you picking me up from school, how you’d always order pizza specifically so it was half vegetarian for me, that awkward moment when you put your arm around me on your parents couch and fell asleep on my shoulder, you giving me the pink plastic ring from the quarter machine at the bowling alley (which I’ve worn every single day for the past year for you), and how you were such a genuine friend to me. I wouldn’t give up the time we spent together for anything.
It’s been a year now, and it feels like it was just yesterday. At the same time though, it’s felt like an eternity. I still remember getting that text from you right around now saying, “I love you.” And then that fatal phone call from Emily breaking the news. My heart broke worse than it ever has. Those days were the hardest days of my life. I know you wouldn’t want us all to be sad for you, but it’s so hard when you lose someone that was so wonderful. There are a lot of people here that love you so dearly and miss you to the point of pain. But I know you didn’t do what you did to hurt anyone.
I just hope you know how much we all love you. I’ll always be your Zoekins/Dragonair. I love you, Rob.
I just realized how awkward it is to sit in a common area on campus and look through tumblr…
I’m sitting in the food court area wasting time. I was so lazy today that I just put on a hat and went to get dinner. Laziness ftw
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Hi, I’m waiting for everyone to get up. I’m already ready. HEY LOOK, JUSTIN IS SNORING ON THE FLOOR.
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So I put turquoise in my hair instead of pink because Sally’s did not have the right shade of pink I was looking for. I really like my turquoise, actually. Except I think I’m going to take out the turquoise streak and make it brown so I just have my dip dye.
It’s cool though!
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